Recently I have been so focused on hitting deadlines for my work that I haven't had time for myself.. (thats why my blog has been neglected, sorry) but today I found time for myself and realised it is time to start what I set out to do for the new year. I don't want to be a whole new person, I just want to feel different, look different and be more confident with myself. This includes getting healthy and being more persistent with exercise. Yes.. Exercise that means getting out of breath and being sweaty, but I guess that shows your working hard. If I put more effort in then I will able to achieve bigger goals.
Tumblr has been extremely inspirational for tips and tricks, and inspirational qoutes to get me motivated... (although I do tell myself "i will start tomorrow" but can you blame me as it is 7pm)
It's not just fitness and eating healthier so I can have more energy but being happier and more confident. That will only come if I let go of everything, and I mean everything and just move on from the past. No forgive and forget, just keep away from the ones who hurt you badly so it won't happen again but lift the big chain and ball I have been carrying around for years. It's time to have more fun and have a better social life. Re-connect with old friends who you miss but meet up more with new friends aswell. You have to have an equal balance. This won't come from counseling or therapy or self-esteem work, this has to come from me! Doesn't matter what the doctor says or the councellor says, I am moving on but accepting i did have a breakdown but am overcoming it slowly and gradually. I achieved this by being more positive, smiling more, laughing more, having more fun, and not worrying.
A new me calls for new hair, right?? My hair is looonngg and I am not just saying that. I can almost sit on it! Do I really want to chop it all off at once? Instead i am gradually going to get there. Little at a time. Using my own handy dandy work and some hair dressing scissors my mum bought me. I do both my brothers hair and my mum's (can't do my dad's because.. well.. he has no hair!) so how hard could it be to do my own. I guess I will find that out soon.. should I post a picture when I am done or wait until I go drastically short, eventually, maybe, never? I guess that all depends on how great I cut it haha. So many people seem to be going short this year so I thought why not!! Not to follow the crowd but I have had long hair for a few years now and it is too much to manage and im getting a bit bored of it. A fringe (or BANGS if your american, which personally is so much cooler to say) has also been trending lately, not too sure if I am that brave. I would like to go for sort of a wispy, shaggy fringe like Katy Perry rocks in her part of me music video rather than go straight for the classic T Swift block fringe. Personally I love her hair in the trouble music video.. maybe I will be brave enough to try it one day! Last time I had a block fringe was when I was 11 and I loved it at first until I realised I looked about 5!
Now we can't have new hair with make up and outfits... I get compliments on my style anyway but I wont to go more exciting. experiment more. GIY more!! how fun?! My makeup.. well I want to experiment more, not get stuck in a rut. Have fun with bold lip colours and fun winged liner. Maybe continue not using mascara (even though I have like tubes that need to be used up.. oops)! I haven't used mascara for just over a month now and now it just feels natural not to apply any. Sort of like a many detox for my eyes, I think my eyelashes thank me for it because I was a mascara junkie before!! I have looked at some gorgeous and adventurous new trends for S/S 2013 and I will definetely enjoy experimenting.
Well thats pretty much my life summed up at the moment. Became deep at the start but I pulled it out with beauty and fashion, things that my blog is about. Not my life, no one wants to hear about that.. right?! I'm still not comfortable with people finding out who I am, what I look like. I'm not even comfortable with me and what i look like, yet. Not ready to be judged. Just judged by my blog posts. Maybe if I get enough followers and people liking what I write then maybe, just maybe, i might reveal me....
That's all for now, off to do more work.... yes, even at 10 o'clock at night but I have the Maroon 5 Overexposed album to keep me company.
XOXO
